aft wat goes on btwn our convo ystdy, maybe i realise tat watever changes tat has taken place may not be to our likings. But it eventually has to happen bcoz its obviously impossible to stay the same. i changed.. she changed.. and everyone changes their ways without realizing it.
For her: its bcoz im afraid of changes, it wat makes wat i am today.. Paranoia, misery and even depressions twirling inside my brain all at one time! And i noe u had to live on ur life, and adapt to a whole new kind of frens altogether. It juz doesnt make sense why im always the one thinking otherwise.
Yeah, perhaps i reali do need to take one thing at a time. Perhaps im reali too free to conjure on other things except my own well being. Wat im feeling rite now, no one will understand. Not until im ready to spill all the beans and scream my lungs out! Rite now, i juz wanna do wat i do best.
Hibernate.
