wat a monday..

feeling kinda 'light-headed' today.. literally. the feeling came tis morning ever since i got outta bed. And its been suckier by the minute. cldnt reali find the mood to work today, but somehow im in the office now wif tis pile of workload. and this blur visions are reali not helping me get thru the day.

Wells the weekend somehow was a much needed break for me. Batam wif the famz, juz wandering arnd, cldnt reali ask for much more. Had seafood and stuffs, but didnt reali do lotsa shopping though. And my lil bro cant stop bugging me bout the Olympics. SHeessSShh~!

Gonna be another bz, bz, and more bz week.. And yes, i am a workaholic, Nurul! =P

ANd now i gotta go back to work..

its finally here.. the official license to drive. LoL! aft nearly 2 years of freakin effort, i'd succesfully obtained it wif flying colors! hahah..

Went to Kaki Bukit camp tis early morning to get my application form for Class 3 conversion. Then aft wich i had to make the schlong journey to SSDC to claim a lil stupid slip of paper, wich of coz is my temp license to drive b4 they post me the card though. JIMBRENG btul uh!

but nvm, at least the most impt part is tat i got wat i wanted hahahah.. yes, it is free license, but damned, i had to put alot of blood, sweat and tears juz to work for it aight. And not to mention thru unfavourable conditions as well man... *relieved sigh*

now at work, nothing to do.. so i tink im gonna play 9-ball first b4 work resumes.. LoL! Thats wat im being paid for too u noe..

updates lah..

the week is coming to a close.. FINALLY! Hell of a week lah. stl have to endure today and the half of tmrw.. Tsk Tsk Tsk~!

Had been working extra long hours since Monday, to cover up for tmrws' hours. Cause we all noe wats tmrw rite?! Muahahha! The LICENSE to Kill! So i'll be taking a half day off in the morning to retrieve my license at SSDC. Wich aft tat, i'll come to work by lunch. LoL! I need to work too u noe.. Cld have easily taken the long weekend break but im a workaholic! =P

Well, like i said, been working OT since Monday.. but its stl damn worth the OT pay hahahah... Dinner at Causeway Point aft work everyday, but everytime we ended up eating fast food all the time. Gentlemen, i tink we shld stop tis habit! LoL..

So yeah.. anw Salim invited me to head down to MOS tmr for some function. But from the looks of it, i might not go even though i wanted to. Saturday goin Batam beb, so i need the rest and stay afresh! Sorie man.. =) And im gonna have to miss the Suntec Dance semis too.. Shoot! Update me on tat pplz~! Hahahha...

"I am Titan, I am strong... No one wants to sing along~!"

the slightest reasons..

another freaking boring weekend.. Great! Its juz so not me, ppl...!
i guess things have been too diff for me lately, i juz hadnt break outta my shell yet.
Maybe i will..? Maybe not now..? yet? Not ever..? I dunt have a damn clue. Pffftt!
"Live high, live mighty.. Live righteously.."
Mraz is always right with his words man..

Well anw, i'd been hoping to clear my head these days, and its never easy.
You cant juz, CLEAR ur head, not without killing urself in the process..
I dunt noe bout others, but im taking loads of time to do so. Deep scars.

Hmm.. to start off. i went to Suntec Dance ystday. Damn.. I reali miss all those sick moves man. For bloody 10 mths or so, i hadnt been getting the chance to watch them bust 'em moves! Totally smooth, all 'em crews. Met C.A. there, also Mahadhir and some old buddies of mine. Everything was pleasant ystday uh. Then aft taht, i actuali went to Explanade and guess wat i heard. LIVE MUSIC! LoL!! How i missed them so so very much all these times..! Its like back in heaven again. Kudos to all the groovy performers, and also John Molina! Yes.. The guy who indirectly inspires me to pursue my singing dreams wif his voice. Hahahha! Master! Gotta do tat often though. LIVE Music is juz me. I missed doin those. Sigh.. Actuali, i miss goin to Esplanade wif her, juz chillin, and listening to 'em performances, no matter how sucky they can be sumtimes. But its all good.. Its quite different ystday without her arnd. Maybe its the fact that wen im wif her, is wat makes it truly magical. It truly is.

Well, Monday blues today.. and the pile of workload on the desk. LoL! Another day in hell i guess. Working late again as per normal. Gotta work lotsa hours till Thursday coz i wunt be coming to work on Friday! Its License Collection day babey~!!! Muahahhahha...! Finally..!
Have been waiting for this moment a hell of a long time. For now, tats gonna be the one thing im looking forward to, tis week. This weekend, Batam wif famz.. A lil family outing aft a balls time, perhaps its about time lah actuali..

Oklah need to get back to work now. Too many shitload! Later..~!

hey yeah..

have u ever been living a lie?

Simple Steps:
Go away for awhile,

Leave the door ajar,

And then watch helplessly as ur life flashes by.

AND pretend its gonna be alright again..

this week..

Juicy news..?

Not reali.. the week went passed without me knowing. Kinda preoccupied wif lotsa stuff nowadays. Working is taking almost part of my life eveyday. Since Monday, i had been goin work xtra early then leave extra late! LoL! Nak carik rezekit kan.. And im expecting it the moment i signed tat contract.

Well anw, im taking things slowly nowadays. Hmm, she came back Tuesday morning and i was very much glad she arrived back safely. Been wanting to meet up wif her for dinner these couple of days, but shes always wif plans and such. Sigh. I miss her though.

So yeah.. i finally met up wif my old NS buddies again last nite @ Arab St. Juz 4 of us: Salim, Iqbal, Shidi and myself talking crap all thru the nite till bout 10+. All working man now, so must go back early beb. LoL! Went back, straight to bed.

Hmm.. im expecting another hectic day today at work. Though its the skool holidays, and the skool seems too empty, i can never get a break from this yet. Hahaha.. GG! (inside joke..)
I wanna eat out today... hopefully.

weekends..

havent been doin much updatings lately.. Almost nothing to update on actuali, but here's wat happened lately;

Thurs, 07 Aug.
Finally holding a job to occupy myself during the weekdays @ RP. Started last Thursday and its gonna take me till Oct end. Though it might be a temp job for 3 mths, i stl take it damn seriously. Reasonable pay for reasonable work. Juz sumting to kickstart my working life officially now. No more spoonfeeding man! A man's gotta do what a Man's gotta do....

Friday, 08 Aug.
Woke up very early in the morning to bid her a safe trip to Bali tat day. She'd been looking forward to the trip since ages, and finally shes there. Despite the issue, wich im sorry i cldnt be of any assitance, i reali reali hope shes enjoying herself there and feel better wen she comes back. Safe journey back, Nurul.
Well, other than tat, work was fine for the 2nd day. Getting more used to the things there so i tink i shdnt have any problem adapting. I never do have issues wif adapting. =) Seriously!

Saturday, 09 Aug.
Happy National Day, Lion City! Sorie i didnt get u a gift, but we pay taxes dont we? =P
I stayed home to watch TV the whole day (someting i missed doin for a long time!) and juz took the opportunity to rest at home. Too lazy to go out coz i noe its a massive packed day. PHEW!

Sunday, 10 Aug.
Bumming day! =)

another thing..

giving up is never an ally
that sums up wat u expect me to do.

but whatever we'd been thru in the past,

plz never think less of me.

dejected..

ORD'ed yesterday..

Got a Job today..

Working man tmrw..

Supposed to be overjoy..

But numb.

the door is slammed shut..
'DO NOT DISTURB' hangs by the knob.
shall i knock, or juz turn and walk away..
im still standing at the doorstep looking at the floor
thinking if i shld juz wait..
till the door finally open.

Love Led Me To You

Such a cold morning greeted me

Such a lonely evening i'd been through

Last night..

I had been feeling all so down

When I realise you're not around

I cried..

Its tough to go on

Without you by my side

When I need you the most to

Take away this pain inside

Everynight i see your face

You came to me in my dreams

I miss you so...

How much more can i endure

Being without you i juz cant

I closed my eyes and pray
That you'll be back here someday
Back here with me,
With me once again..

confuse..

somehow, someway..

my excitement and anxiousness is being overshadowed by confusion.

As much as im trying to shake it off, it seems stuck on me. I juz need an explaination somewhere from someone or anyone..

But fact is, im not prepared to hear it yet. Not wen it cld turn either way. My mind is off-balanced now, so i tink its best i focus on one single thing at a time.

And it have to start at Singfest!

Nothing else...

Singfest!

what a week...

Been quite a good week...

Sunday 27th
I got Punk'd! LoL! Never saw something like tat coming to me.. Was juz supposed to be a friendly date, turns out to a homecoming-cum-belated b'day surprise by the Siloso Beach! Reali, tat was something. But the highlight of the day have to be the Luge rides tat nite! Totally having fun, juz the 7 of us there. Thanx a million ya guyz, esp to my dearest Nurul. =)

Monday 28th
Didnt do much tat day.. Juz went to babysit dear coz shes on MC. Accompanied her @ home till she has to go out and meet her relatives. LoL! I cant believe i havent watch Art of the Devil b4. Not on sequel of it. But since u said it was awesomely gross, im not gonna miss it again. HAVE TO WAAATCH!!!

Tuesday 29th
Head down to P.S. to catch up wif Shamil. Applying for some guitar classes bro? Hahahah.. I swear who looks like a freaking girl wif those long hair. But then its not the first time others commented tat to him. SOrie dude!
Anw headed straight to JW aft tat to watch some soccer training. Reali, never play wif Myanmar guys... They'll play without remorse. And if u happen to be the keeper wen they shoot, time to Pray hard to GOD he stl wants u alive man. LoL! For the girls' team, need more collaboration wif each other. CEH!

Wednesday 30th
Went to dad's school. Dont ask. Juz to finish off some stupid document. =)

Thursday 31th
Again, went down to watch soccer training at JW. Well i can safely say that they are ready for the Sunday tourney. Esp the girls team coz they are reali putting tremendous effort to work as a team. Proud of them, and reali proud of my Nurul too. Stevie-G lah kirekan.. =P
I wish u guys the best for the tourney, and go KICK, KILL!!!!!