wey...

it has been a week oreadi since i landed back here.. quite hectic week i wld say. Havent got a full day of break/rest yet. but hey, tats working life as a damn pathetic soldier in BD.

Anw tis past few days, i cldnt get much peaceful sleep.. Maybe its the wind. LoL!

Oh yeah btw.........

You're looking at the runner-up of Lakiun's BachelorS: Mr Hot & Sexy!! (as voted by our fellow lakiunians!)

And of coz i got a very emotional yet memorable award. The Most Inspirational award.
I was very very honoured to have received it coz its a specially rare award to be handed to perm staffs. And u cant hardly guess wat its for......

Coz i quit smoking. Yes! Quit smoking. =)

Ok im proudly boasting it but cant help it guys... It juz shows tat every lil effort put in, counts as the biggest effort for others to behold.

Cool eh!

its tat time..

2 weeks passed.. juz like a speeding car.

An hour to go b4 i have to leave for the airport. I'd never felt so alone. So bored. So very shitty feeling! I dont wish to go back, but i have to. Its like.. wat im yearning for, isnt complete yet but then my time ran out.

I had a great 2wks break, but its not enuff. Yeah they always say nothing is enuff. Sigh.... I'll do anything to see her rite now. I noe tat wld reali help ease my mind. But she cant.

im juz looking forward to my return again.

and at that time, i wanna start over everything. Refresh my life, my studies, my career too. But not b4 i do THAT one thing i need to do.

Waiting for that Fallen-Star~!

14march..

juz wen things look to fall into place again, i juz had to break them all over again.. why Syam!? u idiot... damn! i screw almost everything up, and wats worst, juz wen im bout to go back Brunei for another shitty 3 mths! im guilty!! i cant even tink of other things except the fact tat i broke her trust... and i will never forgive myself for doin tat!

Juz for once, will someone juz beat the senses out of me..! Stop me from breaking her heart. I don't wanna lose her, not again.

3yrs!

She juz recovered from her illness today. Got warded in ystrday and today she was discharged @ noon. it cld have been better, but it cld be alot worst too.. but luckily shes fine now, all safe and soundly aslp at home at tis time.

its actuali our 3 years anniversary/friendship today! Yeah.. such loads of memories we've had all these while. =) But we cldnt reali celebrate much coz she was sick. Not wat we both expected in mind, but hey its all still good. Im not complaining! LoL! I'll settle wif juz being wif her anw. So i went to hospital wif the parents to fetch her home, and make her all comfy and such. The least i can do is give her good time even if she juz recovered and cant go out rite... But hells! u all dunt be thinking watever by the statement! hehhe...

So anw today went to have a lil family dinner outside.. Bone Steak man!! hahah... its been like ages we havent had them. ANd today was juz rite; everyone was there, and the ambience was perfect and all were enjoying themselves etc... it goes on. but too bad we cldnt dragged on thruout the nite. besok semue keje beb! =D

to start it all...

for the first time since.. forever.. i been diverting my fullest concern towards others than myself! ok not trying to sound terrible, but i guess its true in my case. I betrayed my own self-absorbent feeling and cared bout other ppl. LOL! And im loving everything bout it....~!

well lets cut to the chase aight.

Caught up wif my 2 all-time fav buddies tis past few days, juz living the old good times! aft for so long, its juz reali damn great to de-stress ourselves again by juz 'chill-out-but-do-nothing'! Hahah...! But heck its wat we do best!

Aft that, of coz i wunt forget family times.. Straight up, TOP PRIORITY! ANd always the best of all the lot wen u juz share all sorts of silly tings that had been goin about.

Well apart from those, i stl have the times wif my 'Ms Sunday'! I guess i dunt have to write further than tat, coz i prefer it to be discreet for now. =)

But im wishing for situations to be much much better.. and hopefully its something happy.

Btw, im praying for u to get well pretty pretty soon k. Dunt want u to miss out on the world!

Hehehkz..~Lastly to you..

Indigo Lima Oscar Victor Echo Yemen Oscar Umpire!

homecoming..

Im finally back home! but fer only a couple of weeks, b4 i have to return to Brunei to finish off my last 3 mths there. But Heck i juz wanna have fun now!

So hey i arrived at the airport ystday approx 1000 hrs and cldnt stop thinking bout wat i wanna do and where i wanna go oreadi.

And yeah, was very excited bout seeing her for the first time aft 6 whole gruelling mths. AND didnt expect to see my adik there wif her too.. Lol! I still love u both though!

Kinda spent the rest of the day wif them, went out to eat and caught a movie too! Things picked up pretty well for me and her btw. Thought it might be awkward, but its actuali not that bad. I missed her damn much man, so shoot me if u must!

Well i was reluctant to end the day early ystday, but i had to. Got a home to come to. I didnt wat else to do wen she reached out her hand to shake mine. But next ting i knew, i hugged her! The exact same way wen i did 6mths ago.

And i kissed her head. It was as though everything was picture perfect all of a sudden!

I might not know wat shes feeling, but i noe wat i am feeling. Such a strong feeling for her. I wanna tell her so, but im juz waiting for the right moment for us!

I tink tis cld be a perfect Home Leave!